I fly off tomorrow morning first thing and my first visit home has been an eye opener. I've been in a highly melancholy mood and as this is the month of forgiveness I've been both inspired and gently reminded how greatly I need self criticism. To "everyone" I am sorry if my criticisms have ever appeared arrogant and personal to anybody; being used to personal attacks because of my beliefs or opinions I may at some point have thought this was the norm for dialogue. I've also realised I jump to conclusions too quickly, that I may refer to something with labels without trying to understand the subject or the "others" point of view. The "other" is a construct which by its very nature means something alien and divorced from you. While I don't have to agree with the "other" I can still understand and even respect it, even while trying to convince, teach and change, I may even be the evil, racist and ignorant one myself without realising it. It is perhaps the most horrible human flaw to be arrogant in the face of truth, to refuse to have your ideas scrutinised, discussed and criticised and to block off completely those who challenge you. If I find something which is a truth, I hope I remain humble enough to accept it and learn, for I know now that I do not know.