There are still good people in the world in spite of the many who are cruel beyond belief, and I am convinced that there are things which happen in ways that are no coincidence...I had been following what I thought were His signs, a mix of intuition and unusual circumstance. This led to the most horrific injury to my soul yesterday. I lay there in the dark last night, shattered and unnerved to my core. "Why?" I asked myself, "Why when it had looked like He had wanted me to go down that route, did he lead me to such pain?". I had followed Him when it had all started. Against all logic, my heart told me that what I was doing was right; that if I believed it would all work out fine. Did I just see what I had wanted to see? Was I a fool?
Thursday, November 05, 2009
I asked for an end, I had had enough pain, enough sorrow. As I stumbled out of bed in the dark to pray again, enveloped by emptiness and nursing the wounds of the cruelty I had been subjected to, an act of kindness in the dead of night by a total stranger made the world that little bit more bearable. Cruelty is defeated by living, and this heart beats still.