I fell down again today. It doesn't even hurt anymore...I see a city overrun, the walls are crumbling and things are on fire. Men are fighting each other in the streets, houses and alleyways. The sight is awful to behold and I can see horrible things being done. I can tell that both sides are desparate, but my heart wants the defenders to win. That they are still fighting amidst all this awfulness, it gives me hope, but there is no glory here.